it's happened !! the unexpected rise and fall of kaja!

[n2kaja]

Yano how I have held this ...no I'm not going to fall in love tude????? it won't happen to me .....the same I'm just going to worry about myself cause I don't have the closet space for a man? you all remember that attitude !!! WELL I was wrong !! more to come!!!! but I do have very important things to write in here!!

I had a b'day Sept 1st ..nothing special! but I did go and visit my father ...It was much better

then I thought it would be. He was so cute most of the time, and I could still see that glint in his eye (sometimes you just get the feeling that there is something evil going on in his head) meaning my father always liked to play tricks and such...well he still has that glint! even though he didn't know me I did get the feeling later in the day he sorta knew me .....he asked more questions then he used to . About people long gone that he would think of and where he was going to sleep tonight ..he doesn't feel like the home he has lived in the past 25 years is his home ....I do love him and as I was leaving I looked back to see him waving at the door , I stopped the car looking back and realized this is most likely the last time I will see him in his own home..so peaceful and looking out the door .I couldn't help but start crying ! my son Ian was with me and all he could say was it's ok mom !!!
grandpa is so sweet!

Comments

wow

[tyler-uf.livejournal.com]

Wow ... you had me tearing up and I really have not connection to you or your family. Just the simplicity of the whole action. Waving from his door ... how sad that could actually be. I am glad to hear your son has a chance to enjoy your father ... and view him as sweet. :) How touching.

Keep your chin up ... can't wait to read about your MAN!